Name: How I Met Choi Siwon
Pairing: Yesung focus, YeWon, DanaxOnew
Genre: Romance, angst, drama, paranormal
Warnings: Abuse of alcohol, use of drugs, murders
Disclaimer:I don't own them and never will
Summary: This is the story how a man met Choi Siwon and how it changed his life
I'm a religious man. I do believe in God. He's the one who tells me what I've to do. He's the one who shows me the right way. I don't need anything else. I don't need luxurious things, even thought I never had them to start with. I don't feel the need to spend money on a single thing. I'm just happy for being alone and to pray. What I do, is in the name of God, and no one else. What I do is in his name, nothing else. I may not like it, but it's what I do. Since I was 12. He saved me from a life of depression and death. If it wasn't for him, I would be stealing, living on the streets. Probably sealing my body, or maybe dead. But no. Now I've a ceiling under my head, now I've a purpose in my life.
I know I should introduce myself, perhaps this might be the last time we meet, but I don't believe that will be necessary. On the contrary. As I tell you this story, you'll wish that I never even spoke to you in the first place. I didn't meant what I did. I betrayed myself, I lied to myself and I managed to destroy the bond I had with God. And that happened in seconds. Something that I never thought it would happen. But then again, they always say Satan is appealing. I wish I could say “I'm only human”. If I could, I would probably be forgiven, God would probably forgiven me without thinking twice. But I'm not. I'm not human.
And no. I'm not an angel or some divine personality. I've sinned too much to be one. That is only for people who deserve. Only for the pure ones. I'm just someone who does what he's told to. And I will never be able to be at peace with myself. I've killed too much for too long. At first those faces, those cries would hunt my sleep, would hunt my dreams, but after a while, I became numb to everything. Now I can kill and I won't feel remorse at all. I don't even care. They can cry, beg, talk about their families, but I just don't care. Doing this made me less human. Every day I died a little inside, but now, I'm completely dead.
But what I did...For moments I thought I went insane. It was like I turned my back to God and didn't cared about him. It was like I had sold myself to Satan and that I was fine. I can't believe I allowed myself to fall into temptation. I never allowed myself to do something like that. I was a knight of God! I did everything he told me to! How did I allowed myself to do something he was against? How did I allowed myself to fall for everything I hated? I felt for lust! Lust was a sin, and I still felt for it. I deserve to be punished. I deserve to be punished!
This is the story of how I allowed myself to forget about my path, about my destiny because of lust. How I allowed myself to become weak, how I allowed myself to forget about God. This is the story of how I met Choi Siwon.
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